Everything I’m Building Started With a Death

Happy Easter.

All of it, the blog, the podcasts, the products, the systems, started with something dying first.

The Life That Had to End

I ran a multiple seven-figure online coaching business in the wealth consciousness space. From the outside it looked like everything was working. Revenue was high, programs were selling out, and the audience kept growing. I was living the “dream” life, living in a multi-million dollar home on the beach in Bali. I had the clothes, the jewelry, the glam team. I was also deep in the New Age and the occult, operating in frameworks I believed were helping people create financial breakthroughs. And they were, in the short term.

But I was miserable. My marriage was degrading. My children were being raised by nannies. I had gained over forty pounds and was living in chronic pain. I was chasing the next $100,000 month and the next sold-out program while my body and my family were breaking down around me.

I didn’t realize at the time that for all the power and influence I was gaining while operating in the kingdom of darkness, there was a price being paid. That price was my health, my marriage, my presence with my children, and ultimately my own soul.

By the summer of 2023, everything was falling apart. I was separated from my husband, and I had been away from my children for five months in another country chasing the next million dollar business idea. I had chronic inflammation, thyroid disease, and migraines that lasted five to seven days. I remember sitting in an apartment in Porto, Portugal. I had laid out large pieces of white paper on the floor because I like to whiteboard and map things out. I wrote down everything happening in my business, everything happening in my life, all the programs I was preparing to launch, the new business. And as I looked at it, I realized I didn’t want to do any of it.

I fell to my knees and cried out to God. I told Him I didn’t know what I was doing. I told Him I needed help. I surrendered all of it. Even my children, if that was truly what was best for them.

That was the day my old life died.

What Came After

The next day I woke up and heard from the Lord clearly for the first time in a long time. He told me to go carnivore, to completely change my diet, and to stop drinking alcohol entirely. I did. Within two weeks, about seventy-five percent of my pain was gone. The inflammation was leaving my body and my brain. With that physical clarity came spiritual clarity I hadn’t experienced in years.

Over the next year I began reading the Bible seriously. I reconciled my marriage. I moved back in with my children. I walked away from my online coaching business completely because I could no longer participate in New Thought or New Age frameworks. The Lord taught me about provision (I don’t use the word abundance anymore because it belongs to a worldview I left behind). The difference matters.

I shifted into network and affiliate marketing, a model I had always respected because it allowed me to help people build income without spiritual compromise. After another year, I finally gave my life to Jesus. I had resisted Him for a long time, and the moment I stopped, everything changed.

The Resurrection Pattern

I’m telling you this on Easter because the pattern of my life mirrors the pattern we celebrate today. Something had to die for something new to live. The old business, the old frameworks, all of it had to go into the ground.

What came out of that death is everything I’m building now. Especially today, I want you to see what that looks like.

What Grew From the Ashes

The coaching business that died? That’s where AI with Leah came from. I spent years unable to finish long-form content. 120,000 words across two unpublished books sitting in a drawer. God kept those New Age manuscripts from ever reaching the world (thank God), and then gave me a tool that matched how my brain actually works. 50+ articles published in 90 days. A Pinterest account at 200,000 audience. Over 430 Substack subscribers. A book on AI for believers currently being written. All of it built with AI systems, one VA, and a laptop in Bali. After years of finishing nothing, I have more published work than I know what to do with.

The Cul✞ure Cast grew directly out of the years I spent in deception. When you’ve lived inside a false system and watched it operate from the inside, you learn to recognize the mechanisms. Cultural analysis grounded in Scripture, naming what’s actually happening behind the headlines. I couldn’t do that show if I hadn’t lived in the dark first.

My husband came to Christ a few months after I did and launched his own business, Joyful Jesus Apparel (shameless plug because I’m so proud of him)!

https://joyfuljesus.life/

We’re building together now. That floor in Portugal where I surrendered my marriage to God didn’t just save the relationship. It produced a family operating in the same Kingdom for the first time.

And then there’s Faith on the Fringe, which came from the two years I’ve spent studying Scripture obsessively.

Faith on the Fringe

I’m co-hosting this with Malaine Lea Butler and we launch April 27th with four episodes dropping on day one.

The tagline is “Spirit-Filled. Bible-Obsessed. Slightly Unhinged.” Slightly unhinged because we’re going into the parts of Scripture that most churches won’t touch. The Divine Council. Genesis 6. The Nephilim, the Watchers, fallen angels, giants. Pre-flood history. Spiritual warfare with real scriptural backing. Fulfilled eschatology. All of it examined through a Kingdom-forward lens rooted in the finished work of Christ and the authority of believers. We explicitly reject fear-based dispensationalism and rapture theology.

This space in podcasting is overwhelmingly male-dominated. Shows I love and respect like Blurry Creatures and Into the Supernatural are doing incredible work, but there is no female co-hosted show going this deep into supernatural biblical theology with this level of scriptural grounding. Malaine and I looked at that gap and decided to fill it. We bring deep theological roots, humor, and the kind of long-form conversations (one to two hours, with guests) that make you want to open your Bible and start digging. Serious scholarship with real scriptural grounding, and we’re having fun doing it.

It will be available everywhere podcasts are streamed and on YouTube on April 27th. We are also launching a Substack alongside it for deeper conversations and community interaction. I’ll share more about this as we get closer.

What’s Still Coming to Life

The resurrection pattern doesn’t stop. It keeps producing.

I’m working on a series of historical biblical fiction books with two of my besties in Christ. It’s called House of Eden. Think viral BookTok fantasy meets the Bible. Supernatural worldview, and real scriptural foundation, written to bring people to Jesus through story. I am SO excited about this project. It’s a collaboration that feels like exactly the kind of thing God puts together when you stop trying to plan everything yourself.

The AI book is being written. The fiction series is taking shape. Faith on the Fringe launches in three weeks. My husband is building Joyful Jesus Apparel. And I’m answering new assignments to reach people in ways I couldn’t have imagined three years ago when I was on that floor in Portugal.

The resurrection pattern is how God actually works, not just on Easter but in the lives of people who surrender to Him. He lets the old thing die completely and builds something entirely new from the foundation up. And He keeps building.

Three years ago I was a miserable, sick, absent mother running a business built on frameworks from the wrong Kingdom. My family is together now, my marriage is restored, and everything I’m building serves the same mission: stewarding truth, protecting identity, and equipping people with tools and theology that produce real fruit.

I didn’t plan any of this. I surrendered and then I obeyed, one step at a time.

Happy Easter. He is risen. And He’s still making dead things come back to life.